For some reason society seems to believe a family with a mom, a dad and two children is the ‘perfect’ family. Of course those two children better not be the same gender. Heaven for bid the perfect family have two girls.
I am bombarded with questions about when we are going to try for a boy. Even while still in the hospital after Is was born. The nurse asked if I had other children, upon hearing I had a little girl at home she declared we needed to try for a boy. How about I recover from the c-section before we start talking about the next baby?!
Why is it automatically assumed that we are unsatisfied with having two girls? I feel like we are in a great place, our girls are girly girls, but they also enjoy a lot of ‘boy’ things too. We have trucks and action figures, we play sports and get dirty. Sometimes those boy activities are done in a tutu, and that just adds to the fun.
Its unfair to Mark and myself to insinuate that we have some how failed in putting together family because we have yet to have a son. It’s unfair to my girls that people view one of them as the wrong gender. To be fair, nobody has ever flat out said our family is poorly designed because we have two girls rather then a boy and a girl. But comments about when we are going to try for a boy are terribly uncalled for in my mind.
I recently came across an image from TheLaughingStork.com that spoke to me in a way. How many kids you have vs. What people think.
After our wedding it was joked that we needed to start having kids right away in order to keep up with my husbands sister who had 3 (on purpose too!) After a year of trying for a child we started to loose hope. In that year we learned it may never happen for us and that my sister in law was expecting her 4th (also on purpose!). Thrilled for their joy and hurting for us. Especially when the questions about when we would have our first came. But not long after the birth of our third nephew we learned we were expecting Em.
Once Em was born it was awesome, adorable little girl, looks like mommy, energetic like daddy, all sorts of fun comments. Then came then ‘So, when are you going to have the boy?!’ when Em turned 1. Suddenly it felt like I was doing it wrong again. Why can’t I expand my family on my own schedule? Why do I have to follow the schedule you deem acceptable? Are you going to raise my children? Before I couldn’t even bat an eye my amazing sister in law was expecting her 4th son and Em was turning 2. Then the thought creeped in on me, maybe it’s time. Before Christmas we learned about another baby who would turn out to be another little girl. Before her birth people already showed disappointment in the news of a second little girl joining our family. For Mark and I it was nothing but excitement.
We brushed off comments about when we might try for a boy, and quietly enjoyed our perfect family which included 2 little girls. I think we even tuned them out until baby number three came into the plans. ‘Oh, you must be hoping for a boy this time!’ someone said to me. In my heart I felt we were expecting another girl and I was just thrilled to be adding another member to our family girl or boy. Then came the comments, are you trying to keep up with your sister in law who now had a heart and a home filled with the joy of 6 beautiful children. Why is it always a comparison? This is REAL LIFE not a battle to who can build the perfect family. So when we lost our 3rd child I became more angry with everyones comments towards me; and those close to me who have told me of all the comments they have had in regards to their family make up.
I fear when the next time someone might ask me when we are going to try to have a boy. Mostly I fear because I don’t know what will come out of my mouth. Catch me on a good day it might be a simple ‘We don’t know’. Catch me on a bad day about it might be an emotional word vomit about a miscarriage, and having challenges getting pregnant and who do you think you are for even asking me this personal information?’ I don’t know.
Whatever it may be, Mark and I love our world filled with princesses, dolls, tea parties and everything in pink. And in my opinion, people shouldn’t think anything more then ‘that’s awesome’ when it comes to how many kids a couple may have. Don’t try to start up a conversation with someone about the forms of birth control they may or may not be using, because it’s nobody’s freakin business but that couples. Don’t pass judgement as well intended as you might think it is on a couple for the family they may or may not have. A simple comment to a childless couple may cause more pain then they let on. That couple may have been trying, hoping and praying to be blessed with a child for years now. Your comment to a mother about having ‘their hands full’ with X number of children doesn’t help either. Parents of children are fully aware how full their hands are with whatever gender and number of children they have.
Whatever a couple may have, the response should just be… THAT’S AWESOME!